Misery....

I wanna go home...
I wanna stay home...

I really hate army life... =(

I wonder if it could get any better, or worse... for that matter...

I sprained my leg while doing the Standard Obstacle Course, got a severe drug allergy which I didn't know of, got deported to Changi General Hospital A&E and got attend C...

I wondered if I was going to die..

=(

Life in the army is not the type of life I could ever live with...

I have people I love outside,
I have friends, I have family...

Inside, everybody is so demoralized and depressed that it seems like a confinement camp then anything else...

I know the commanders try to cheer people up,
some of the soon-to-be leaders try to lift people up..

But the majority of us just wants to carry on with our lives...

Life is MISERABLE there...

M-I-S-E-R-A-B-L-E!!!

the complete lack of freedom, space, time to do anything you want...
the feeling of complete drainage of energy at the end of the day...
the shadow of hopelessness knowing that its going to be a tougher day the next day...

why?

why??

is it a rite of course that Singaporeans must go through?

Protecting the country is a must, but why this way?

Can't the country first instill patriotism before subjugation?



Pain..
I can't walk properly now...
Aches jut up my leg at irregular intervals...


I was lucky not to get a fracture....

But how many else might not be so lucky?

Losing a leg, an arm, a spine for Singapore... Is this the price that is considered?


Army...


I'm utterly depressed and miserable..
I just want to get out and live a normal civilian life...

Which citizenship is worth it to be subjected to such a life?

Two years.


Its enough to make me cry..


I just wanna go home and be in your arms again...



*cries badly*

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Michael Buble - "Home"

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home


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